this is one of the couple of things I was afraid to tell my mother
so many bad things would happen to me
and she would say that it is a pity
what I have been through

and I would tell her that it’s okay mom
I probably deserve it all
I am a terrible friend
and I am not that good at keeping in touch
or establishing a connection with someone

so I am the type of person that these things must happen to
so that the people who can connect with each other may sustain
and have something to talk about

social interaction is more like conjuring than acting
because I am unarmored and a step back behind the colors

I say goodbye well and know how to not sound taxed when I say hello
and I’m sorry but my virtues might end there